All I want for Christmas is peace...

Finally, I'm on my summer break holiday. I'm actually on my holiday for like a couple of weeks, is just that now I'm officially doing nothing as I don't have to work any more. :)
This is the period of time and season where I will normally look forward to, but why must it be ruin by some random people that I don't know? I just don't get the point where some people could be so busy body without realising that a simple question that pops out from their mouth, will actually lead to a tsunami in my life. :(

I'd tried to do what ever shit I can to minimise the connection with the people outside. I customised my facebook settings, delete my photos from my facebook, hide my blog from anyone before I figured out how to restrict the people that view my blog. Why? Why do I have to do all this shit which I used to think that it is a childish act but now, I'm actually seeing myself taking all those actions one by one? Why?

Question marks filled up my entire brain. Brain storming what should I say when the questions came back to me? Should I act like there's no such thing? Or should I stand at my point to tell the truth? I know I have all rights to stand out and explain, as I truly think this is the only thing that I have 100% rights to choose it myself, as I don't need any one's help in it. But I'm scare. I don't have the courage to do so. :(

Just because I'm a Chinese, family is something that we treasure and take into account on everything we do. Deep down in my heart, I love to be a Chinese. But sometimes it is so much easier to not be a Chinese.

I am racist, but I trust every race have their good and bad. Not all Chinese are good, and not all other races that are bad. Why must those baby boomers restrict themselves, think narrowly in terms of relationship? Of course I know the best is to marry someone who shares the same culture as you, but does it mean that marrying someone, or even to date some one which is not the same race as you, is a sin?

From what I see from my family member's marriage, the one that actually marry a different culture spouse has the happiest marriage. I know they are just being caring, and hope the best for me, but I know what I should choose, and what not to pick.

I'm an adult, and I know I am, so I will handle this properly, and I won't let this to ruin my summer holiday!

Wishing everyone, a peaceful Christmas and a great new year ahead!

xx, J