utterance

Dad,

In my heart,

I knew that you're always the one who care for me the most among those siblings..

I just always knew it from the core of ma heart.

But why I'm always the one who always argue with you?

Debate things that I feel that there's some mistake in it?

Now I tell you why dad,

this is because I feel that you spread ya love to your children with bias!

You love me more compare to Jason and Jimmy...

and is pretty obvious till everyone beside us can feel it, same goes to me...

Thanks for loving me more dad,

but,

WHY must you do so?

Just because I'm better in everything compare to them?

Just because I got more A's in school???

Is that the way you divide your love to us?

More A's and you'll get more portions of dad's love?

NO!!!

That's not the proper nor correct way dad...

You should love all your children

EQUALLY!!!

I'm not here to lecture you and I don't have the right to lecture my elders...

But I'm just here to voice out what I felt and I'm here representing my mum and bros.

I'm sure that they feel the same way as I do,

just that they don't have the guts to voice out to you...

I ain't not showing any respects to you,

but

I just wanna let you know that,

in this world,

there are much more things to be

seen,

done,

and the most important thing is to

APPRECIATE.

Yes,

I do take studies as a very important part in my life because I knew that without the cert,

I'm way more behind from those who have a thin slice of degree paper..

That's why I choosed continue my studies thou I've faced much more unhappy things n stuffs during the period...

Theoretically,

that's how normally people will judge a human capacity...

But does it means that

Poor in studies = NOTHING????

I'm not good in my studies as well,

just I'm slightly a bit lucky to be better than my 2 bros..

BUT

this does not shows tat they both don't have their strong part...

Jason is much more better than me in computer wise...

Jimmy has a better EQ than I am...

And who noes that they won't be as successful as anyone out there?

I just trust that they will have their bright sides on the other end of the world...

God created so many humans and creatures in this world,

and why

we're choose to be dad and mum's children but not other ppl's child?

We're fated to be parents and children this life,

and

it might not happen for the rest of the life...

We're born as your children,

We'll die as your children as well...

No matter we're good or bad,

healthy or weak,

smart or dumb,

presentable or not,

we're still you're children...

So why must you compare us with others?
Pondering why parents always compare their children
but
children never compare their parents?

Do we ever did that to you dad?

Comparing you and our friends' dad see who has the ability to earn more money???

How do you define comparison?

And what's the purpose to compare?

Comparison is made to motivate one

Not to bring him/her down and makes him/her feel that he/she is nothing to this world...

No matter you like it or not,

you've made us out and you have the responsibilities to accept everything of us

Since you can't change the fact,

so why not accept it?

Be thankful to God that you have a healthy bunch of children,

more than enough food to eat

warm clothes to wear,

shelter for all of us to avoid sun and rains

Imagine that there are more unfortunate ppl way outside

Be more optimistic and be thankful of what you have

rather than thinking of what you don't have...

Ain't it will be more happy by that?

Maybe our perceptions of life is different,

so is hard for me to pursue what you what...

Life is short, I won't do things to pleased everybody...

I am what I am, not who you want me to be!